Urban Gardens

     For years I've wanted to do more to beautify the inner city property of our Lutheran church and school here in Racine.  Now my classroom is being moved across town to this property so I asked permission to begin an urban garden.  When I looked around the property for a spot, I saw a small area that had already been cleared with a rock border and some remnants of another years tomato plants.  I thought this would be a good place to start.  Being a cool sunny morning in June I thought this should be easy work, but I was wrong.  Even though the breeze was cool coming off of Lake Michigan, I was soon dripping with the effort of weeding and turning over the soil.  There is always a tedious side to the joys of gardening.  I kept plugging away at my small effort and as I walked away I turned to admire my work: it was barely visible!  Now I want to add to it, but plan to go in the afternoon when the work area will be in the shade.
     Even though we lived in the city, and my dad was city born and raised, we always had a garden.  He kept this up into his eighties and only gave up his tomato plants when forced by heart problems to move to a condominium.  So I would like to dedicate my urban garden to him, and all the memories of our vegetable gardens growing up.  They were never pretty gardens, he would hide the garden behind the garage and tie up the tomatoes with whatever was available.  But he always seemed to enjoy scratching at the weeds, tilling out some fresh vegetables from the dry, dusty soil.
     He attempted to have a garden in the country when I was in high school.  We would drive out there to weed and it was sheer torture in the hot sun, not the enjoyable hobby it was in our backyard.  He kept it for several years after I left for college and had summer jobs so I was unable to help.  It inspired my brother to have his own garden in the valleys between the bluffs in LaCrosse.  There he showed us his garden with pride, on a friend's property so beautiful I imagined it must have looked like this in the Garden of Eden.  It was lush and velvety green, with a brook tumbling over rocks nearby.  What a pleasure it must have been to pause and lean on a hoe while weeding and glance around at the scenery that took your breath away.  Years later, when I see the owners of that property on rare occasions, I still recall the beauty and reminisce with them.  I can't imagine ever wanting to leave a place as wonderful as that.  I wonder if one takes it for granted when you see it every day.
  So I will have my urban garden, with concrete tumbling along side of it instead of a brook.  Hopefully the students will plant their own tomatoes next spring and I will tend them carefully over the long hot summer, starting a tradition for them to carry on with them into their futures.

“[Psalm 19] For the director of music. A psalm of David. The heavens declare the glory of God; the skies proclaim the work of his hands.
This morning I opened my eyes to a watercolored sky.  The clouds were wisps against the light blue background.  Why don't I take more time to look at the beauty God has created there for me every day?  It's too much of: wake up, the  alarm clock is ringing, take a shower, eat breakfast while my hair is drying, read the paper or the computer as I eat.  And yet, when there is no schedule I tumble through the day at a loss for what to do.  I must find a balance to sustain myself, remind myself to look at beauty as I go through the motions of the day.

Summer Plans

After a cool,  inclement spring, I want to embrace each day of summery weather.  So I will make a plan:
1. Breakfast and lunch on the porch every day possible.
2. Walk twice a day.
3. Work in the yard as much as is needed.
4.  Practice Chopin preludes when the sun isn't out.
5.  Write every day.
6. Begin and end each day in prayer.
7. Hike at Hawthorn Hollow once a week.
8.  Hike by the lake once a week.
9.  Work on a garden at my new school site.
10.  Read, read, and then read!

Poetry month

Summons

Keep me from going to sleep too soon
Or if I go to sleep too soon
Come wake me up. Come any hour
Of night. Come whistling up the road.
Stomp on the porch. Bang on the door.
Make me get out of bed and come
And let you in and light a light.
Tell me the northern lights are on
And make me look. Or tell me clouds
Are doing something to the moon
They never did before, and show me.
See that I see. Talk to me till
I'm half as wide awake as you
And start to dress wondering why
I ever went to bed at all.
Tell me the walking is superb.
Not only tell me but persuade me.
You know I'm not too hard persuaded. 

Robert Francis

Slice of Life

I'm a little late in starting the Slice of Life project this March because I spent a few days away from my 'normal' life.  I went to Lannon, Wi. to participate in an accreditation process.  It was a delightful 3 days of hard work away from the daily 'grind'.
  I had the foresight to schedule a field trip on the day of my return, so we headed to Hawthorne Hollow to learn how maple trees are tapped.  It was a beautiful, sunny, crisp day crunching through the sugar snow.  We actually tapped a tree and the children were invited to put their mouth right under the spile and taste the sap.  This was a  moment they probably will never forget.
  On the homefront, everyone is home from their adventures:  Colin was in Tuscon, AZ and Tris was on choir tour in Colorado.  It is good to have them around and get their viewpoints on everything.
  I am struggling with the process of grieving for my parents as they age.  From week to week I see them decline and it is heartbreaking.  I never dreamed I would be grieving for them before they pass on.  It is not something you can ever prepare yourself for...

At the corner of Bitter and Sweet

This summer I participated in a writing program online and also reviewed the Artist's Way by Julia Cameron.  I came home from the cottage and set up my old desk in front of the bedroom window which has a scenic view.  But I have not written till now.  Now I feel compelled to write.  As referenced above this has been a time of bitter and sweet intersecting.  Our daughter graduated from college in a wonderful ceremony, with happiness of family around us, but her future is uncertain.  My parents are settled in assisted living, but my mother is lashing out at my father, and telling absurd tales as she sinks into dementia. Our youngest son is doing wonderfully at a school I never dreamed he would attend, but we are being sued for an accident he had in high school.  And so it goes...one step forward, three steps back.
     On Christmas Day I told my brother that if he or my nephew drove my parents to my house after church I would give them cookies.  Little did I know they had no time to make their own, and so by my unknowing action, my niece deemed me 'the aunt that saved Christmas'.  I liked that very much.  Bitter into sweet.
     My other brother and his wife and their family visited and we laughed until we cried about family and their dysfunctional attributes.  The next day my niece sent me a request to be her friend on Facebook.  I feel as if I passed a test of some sort.
     When we went to see the Hobbit, the wizard made some reference to the small things (hobbits) in life mattering more than great power.  I took comfort in that, because all I have right now are small things to help me through these bittersweet days.

New Year's Resolutions

This list by Christopher Lehman is more comprehensive than I could have thought of myself...

Think through your personal and professional life:

o   the book you wanted to read

o   the book you wanted to WRITE

o   the song you wanted to sing

o   the group you wanted to join

o   the place you wanted to go  

o   the child you realize you have been harsh with

o   the child you realize you haven’t heard from enough

o   the child you wanted to congratulate

o   the people you wished you had thanked

o   the colleagues you do not see outside of work

o   the fears you just gotta get over already

o   the strengths you know you have locked inside